So I really am bad at keeping up with this even though I really have been wanting to.... I guess we will have to start with my Bday... I was suppose to work that day, teaching swim classes and at Outback. I had to teach swim lessons of course but thank you God one of my managers at Outback let me be off. I was blessed with a pretty good birthday... went to the beach and out to dinner. The weather could of been nicer...but hey I had nap. I don't get those often.
Later that night pretty much all my friends ditched me to either a party or a bar. That's what I get for surrounding myself with friends like that. They weren't always that way, most of them use to be serious athletes...and part of that time I was actually more like how they are now. People go in different directions. I know I can still be friends with them... but I can't involve myself in such things.... It actually bothers me that they feel they need to rely on alcohol to get in a different mind state just to have fun and for me to be there, having fun with them is supporting it. If I am there saying I won't drink because it is not good for me and it is against what I believe in, it may seem to be leading an example but it is really saying I only care for my own well being. If I don't go there believing I can prevent someone from drinking alcohol or getting drunk, or to in general preach the word of God then I should not be there.
Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.
Ephesians 5:18
God has blessed me with this wisdom...but I have a lot more I need to write. It is really late and I have work in the morning. Hopefully I may finish this tomorrow... If I can work on it consistently I'll try to put it out for people to read.
God Bless.
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So I was convicted of what I wrote before at Basileia...not that anyone reads this but once I get things together I will put it out more... If you want to know what basileia is... read my 1st post...
Anyway I was also convicted that my distance from God is because I have many bad influences in my life that pull me further from him. This has been hard for me to and I've been doing it. Probably a little slower than i should but..I actually had a friend say that I don't hang out with anyone anymore, I'm too good to go to parties, that I've changed and that hanging out with inter-varsity is changing me. It was hard to hear that he was upset with me but.... it is true and it's a good thing. I have changed, I am changing and I am trying to change. I still have along way to go on this especially with bad jokes and sexual innuendos... I thought for awhile if they are jokes and you aren't serious about it... then there is nothing wrong with it but again allowing yourself to speak of sin and joining in other's jokes is stating that it is ok to do, that it is ok that is around. It is influencing sin. I was clearly convicted by these verses....
EPHESIANS 5: 3 - 6
"But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people. 4Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving. 5For of this you can be sure: No immoral, impure or greedy person—such a man is an idolater—has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God. 6Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of such things God's wrath comes on those who are disobedient. 7Therefore do not be partners with them. "
I have to say it is pretty blunt. It easier to not be involved in bad stuff with your friends you choose... but its tough at work... a place you kind of have to be and you're pretty much automatically involved in conversation. God is definitely testing me and building me. I need to be stronger though. I will have a good two weeks before school starts without working at most of my jobs. I will just have outback which is the least of my temptation so God has blessed me with some break time to get myself together. Also I have found a room I can rent that is 15 minutes away from school. I'm still weighing out the good and the bad though. I could definitely find peace there and have nothing to distract me from the word... and I hate to say it but school work when it comes.
again I am not finished but it is late... I'll continue tomorrow.
God Bless.
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